Look at me being all productive ((*snicker*))

I have a paper due on Monday in CRW and i'm actually working on it right now as opposed to Sunday evening or Monday before class.  Go me, right?  hehe

well...i can't really brag all that much because i only have a paragraph and here i am procrastinating on xanga already. 

how much of a dork am i that most of my entries are somehow related to school??  o-well.  i am who i am, i guess.

just four days of classes left in this semester.  thats so stinkin awesome.  i don't even have words for this time of the year--the world is finally turning green and blue again (ie the trees & and grass, and sky) and the weather is warm (for the most part)...and THE SEMESTER IS OVER!! (or almost over anyways). 

good stuff.

so how about this facebook craze??  who woulda thought something so seemingly simple could become such the fad?  its really quite addicting.  everyone who is anyone is on thefacebook.  hehe just kidding.

well i should get back to...something. 

peace out--

i'm much calmer now. 

i know things will work out. 

i just have to put my faith in God...

...sometimes easier said than done, but here we go

the real world is really starting to set in.  i guess i have to face it--i'm growing up.  and let me tell you:  i am not happy with this realization.

just got home from my Spain meeting and yeah, i am excited to be going there this summer but after i handed over a $1250 check for my plane ticket and started to think about how much i still owe...man o man. 

when i get back in august, i'm gonna have to be workin like a crazy lady so i can pay for school..

my mom was like "oh, don't worry.  i'll help you as much as i can"

heh.  no no.  i am not going to play that game if i can possibly avoid it at all.  any time she helps me out or does anything it comes back to hit me in the face.  she'll get pissed off about sumthin and then remind me o so kindly that shes helping to pay for school, which by the way, i'm only going because she wants me to. 

ARGH!!!!!

are u sensing my frustration here?

yeah and it gets better--mother dearest wants me to call her while i'm gone.  does she not realize that part of the motivation for going to spain is that i will be gone for 5 weeks?  gone from here, from her?  ok.  i don't hate my mom or anything but we don't exactly get along well either.

but a happier subject..i think:  the philly trip.  also had a meeting for that today after church.  it was pretty good.  i'm starting to look forward to that more.  or maybe i'll be able to when i'm done with this semester and i have one less thing to worry about.  but o wait--i'm an idiot and i'll be taking a class during the first 5 week session which lasts until the day b4 we leave for philly.. huh.  maybe i'll be able to get excited about the trip the nite before. 

right.  i was thinking positive.

positive. postive. 

well, i have 2 papers due next week..  thats sumthin to look forward to, right?

i need coffee.

i'm so freaking sick of ohio.

july can't come soon enuf.

o to be in valladolid right now...

skipping classes on days like this is always fun.  i woke up this morning and without thinking twice, ran downstairs to move my car out of the driveway so my mom could get out, then went back to bed.  that was the first class--sociology.

then, i had some stuff i wanted to get done and decided to go for it.  i didn't plan on it taking so long but i wasn't all that disappointed when i realized i wasn't gonna make it to linguistics.  that was the second class.

now i'm sitting here debating whether i should even bother to go to american lit.  i've already missed 2 classes today...why should i drive all the way over to campus (a whopping 10 minutes) for one class??

hehe.  no, i'll prolly go to that class.  he mite hand out paper topics and i'm gonna need all the time i can get to write this one.

hope everyone is havin a great day!!

FAFSA is such a pain in the butt.

i feel like i should post something of substance for my own good.  writing always helps me get my thoughts in some sort of order.  the only problem is, i don't feel like i have many thoughts of substance these days.  i'm just goin thru the motions trying to finish the semester decently.  i have 2 more papers in CRW, 1 paper in AmLit, 2 exams in Sociology, 1 exam in Linguistics, a take home final in AmLit, a computer final in sociology...and i think i will be done.  after tomorrow, only three weeks left (plus finals).  not too bad.

my days consist of going to class, babysitting hailey and michael or bradley and brett, and occasionally going out with friends.  God, as much as i hate to admit, is becoming less and less a part of my life.. again.  that scares me.  i don't know...anything anymore.  i've found myself falling back into old ways..

i'm in quicksand with no one around for miles.

i tell myself that i'm gonna set aside some time and try to talk to God...to read my bible...to whatever.  but it just hasn't happened.

and then there is the philly trip.  if i'm at this kind of a place, i don't really feel like i should be going on the trip but at the same time, i don't wanna back out. 

this is lame.

writing didn't help this time.

i feel like i should post something of substance for my own good.  writing always helps me get my thoughts in some sort of order.  the only problem is, i don't feel like i have many thoughts of substance these days.  i'm just goin thru the motions trying to finish the semester decently.  i have 2 more papers in CRW, 1 paper in AmLit, 2 exams in Sociology, 1 exam in Linguistics, a take home final in AmLit, a computer final in sociology...and i think i will be done.  after tomorrow, only three weeks left (plus finals).  not too bad.

my days consist of going to class, babysitting hailey and michael or bradley and brett, and occasionally going out with friends.  God, as much as i hate to admit, is becoming less and less a part of my life.. again.  that scares me.  i don't know...anything anymore.  i've found myself falling back into old ways..

i'm in quicksand with no one around for miles.

i tell myself that i'm gonna set aside some time and try to talk to God...to read my bible...to whatever.  but it just hasn't happened.

and then there is the philly trip.  if i'm at this kind of a place, i don't really feel like i should be going on the trip but at the same time, i don't wanna back out. 

this is lame.

writing didn't help this time.

ever imagine what it'd feel like to be a chicken with its head cut off..just running around in circles? 

welcome to my life.

i'm getting dizzy.

so after another all-nighter, its finally the weekend..

...or at least something resembling it. 

*sigh of relief* 

only 4 more weeks...

only?