April 14, 2005

  • i feel like i should post something of substance for my own good.  writing always helps me get my thoughts in some sort of order.  the only problem is, i don't feel like i have many thoughts of substance these days.  i'm just goin thru the motions trying to finish the semester decently.  i have 2 more papers in CRW, 1 paper in AmLit, 2 exams in Sociology, 1 exam in Linguistics, a take home final in AmLit, a computer final in sociology...and i think i will be done.  after tomorrow, only three weeks left (plus finals).  not too bad.


    my days consist of going to class, babysitting hailey and michael or bradley and brett, and occasionally going out with friends.  God, as much as i hate to admit, is becoming less and less a part of my life.. again.  that scares me.  i don't know...anything anymore.  i've found myself falling back into old ways..


    i'm in quicksand with no one around for miles.


    i tell myself that i'm gonna set aside some time and try to talk to God...to read my bible...to whatever.  but it just hasn't happened.


    and then there is the philly trip.  if i'm at this kind of a place, i don't really feel like i should be going on the trip but at the same time, i don't wanna back out. 


    this is lame.


    writing didn't help this time.