ok.  seriously.  i'm all over the place.

i just watched "the one with the proposal," as you might have gathered from the title of this post and the fact that i'm *Currently Watching*  Friends - The Complete Sixth Season.

if you aren't a big fan of the show...well, you should be. 

every time--EVERY TIME--i watch that episode i cry.  i mean all over the place.  such a great show. 

but going back to the all-over-the-place comment...sometimes i think that i don't even care if i never find it--you know, the right guy, love, all that jazz.  that i could be perfectly happy going through life by myself.  i mean, that would give me the opportunity to do what i love--travel.  i could teach ESL and go wherever, whenever pretty much.  i wouldn't have to deal with all the issues that go along with being in a relationship.  but then i watch shows like that and i'm like--no.  need someone now.  well, not now because my life is ridiculous right now and i don't have time for a *real* relationship but..some day in the not so distant future.  so i don't know. 

anyway, moving right along--thursday in my ESL theory class it was stinkin hilarious.  dr.pakenham makes me laugh lots.  we were discussing speech and that when you listen to someone talking, you walk away with a basic understanding--ideally--of what the person said, but not their exact words.  obvious stuff, right?  so then this one old lady in the class started talking (cuz they never shut up!!) about how "well, then i guess you've never heard teenage girls talk to each other then" and everyone started making fun-- "and then he was like...and i was like....and so she wall all...and i totally just..."  and i about died.  thats so me.  am i still a teenager?  not just a teenager, but a ditzy teenager?  omg.  thats so sad.  but so funny.  really.  i guess its good that i can laugh and not be offended.  should i be offended?  i always feel really young in that class anyway because i'm seriously prolly the youngest one in there--with most people either already teaching and just there to renew or to get the TESOL endorsement.. or at least working on their masters or something.  the guy that sits next to me is 29.  the women that sit in front of me are teachers--one a spanish prof at the uni.  but that just really did it for me.  wow.  fun times.

well..i've actually been semi-productive so far this weekend.  i wrote up my observation for dr.smolens class.  made some flash cards for an exam i have monday.  started reading a book that prolly won't even be due until friday (at the earliest).. so until i have to go out to the cafe, i think i'm gonna try to continue in this fashion.

...or at least get outside and enjoy the decent weather.

make it a good one

wow.  i love that i didn't have to work yesterday and i love the fact that i don't have to work tomorrow!!  --as much as i wish i could say that i enjoy working for moniza, it rilly is killing me.  i've had pretty much no time to myself since i started babysitting three days a week.  the time that i'm not down there or in class, i'm usually either working on stuff for class, thinking about what i should be doing for class, or working on PartyLite stuff. 

speaking of PartyLite stuff...geez o pete.  this one chick i'm supposed to be doing a party for monday called me earlier today while i was in class and when i got the message i was just like, i'll call her tomorrow since i'm going to have some free time with not babysitting during the day.  well she didn't give me a chance.  around 9 or 9:30 she called my cell phone.  i was in the bathroom so i didn't answer but then she called my home phone and of course when my mom answered & yelled upstairs for me to answer, i had to take it.  this is my job yes, but as my leader Donna said, i work when i want to and i rilly didn't like that i felt that i needed to explain why i had not called this woman back.  she was interrupting my down time.  at the risk of sounding like a whiney little girl--i just don't think its fair.

i was watching sex & the city tonite (while i should have been reading for class) and it brought tears to my eyes--not a normal reaction for that show.  never used to like the show but a lot of my thoughts and opionions have changed over the past six months or so.  it was the last episode.  there is this shot after carrie gets back to new york and she meets up with samantha, charlotte & miranda and it just so made me long for something new and different.  i can't wait to graduate from college.  i can't wait to get a real job.  something that i like.  something that doesn't involve spoiled 3 year olds or women who call at all hours of the day about candles, candle parties, and candle orders...or women who don't return phone calls at any hour of the day (i've not yet figured out which is worse). 

anyway.  so the fact that the end of the semester is coming scares me a bit.  only 5 weeks left.  i have so much that needs to be accomplished in that time.  i mean, don't get me wrong, i will be so very happy to have a break from the routine once (if) i actually get thru it all but then next semester will start up in january with my possibly even crazier schedule of cramming 6 classes in every tuesday and thursday.  thats very nearly suicidal--classes from 7:45am until 6:25pm?  oy.  i won't have any classes monday, wednesday, and friday tho so maybe it will balance out.  i'm thinking i will probably have time to myself on those days until about 12:30 when i'll have to head to canton to babysit. 

tho i mustn't think that far ahead.  need to get work done for this semester.  so i'm off to try to read nearly 100 pages before my 11 class tomorrow. 

peace--

wow   

its November!!

how the heck did that happen??