yesterday was my first day at target. 

10 hour day.

long.

feet still hurt.

about to leave for day two and even tho it'll be 1 1/2 less, i'm thinkin its gonna be rough, regardless. 

props to anyone who has a real and honest dream for the future--something that is deep and around which your life has centered for a significant time. 

i can count on one hand the number of people who i think might be able to claim such a thing. 

whats going on with the rest of us (or maybe it really is just me)?

i have a lot of ideas.  a lot of different things i'd like to do with my life.  but not one solid dream that holds it all together.

i've been working on homework all morning and as i sit here, nearing the end but not quite there yet, i'm wondering what its all for.  i mean, i'm in school.  have been for 15 1/2 years now.  currently pursuing this thing known college degree.  and whether it is next winter (as i hope), the following summer, or another couple of years from now (grad school) when i finally finish, what will come after that?

i'm getting a degree in english.  i mean, really--what was i thinking?  ((i say that half joking, half seriously))  now, granted, i will also be certified to teach English as a Second Language but i don't think i can call that a "dream"...

i always wanted to write...but heres my second semester of taking writing classes and i'm thinking, a.) theres a good chance i don't have what it takes as far as talent and/or drive, and b.) its a rough life, them writers live (the real ones, i mean), and i don't know if thats what i want, either. 

flip side, however, is in this Creative Nonfiction class i'm taking right now (i'm loving the text--Writing True).  perhaps i'm not cut out for writing fiction but there could be something in nonfiction.  travel writing could be a lot of fun and its something i think i could really love..

but who knows...

finally.

went to orientation for target today. 

all the "execs" seem v. nice so i think working there will be okay. 

yesterday was the first day back in class.

7:45a-6:25p

thats how long i'm on campus.

only tuesday and thursday classes tho and i think i could really get used to this.  its a long day but with a couple of breaks, i really get stuff done. 

i think i'll like most of my classes this semester too so that will be nice.

fiction appreciation--a gen ed with a prof i already know & it should be easy.

geography of cultural diversity--gen ed.  haven't really decided what i think about it yet.  prof seems a lil loopy.

adv. fiction writing--not really all that excited about it but only because of some of the people in the class.  hopefully it will turn out ok, tho.

world civ: latin america--gen ed & really exicted about this, actually.  the prof seems good and hes been to a lot of the places hes going to be teaching about ((pix and video to share--v. in-your-face type of stuff that had me almost in tears yesterday. no joke))  also, he doesn't use a text book--we do an assigned reading every week which we can either download from internet or buy at docuzip.  read first one today.  v. good.

creative nonfiction--was getting tired by this class so i was *out of it* for most of the duration but i know the prof from a class i took over summer and i finished the reading for tomorrow & am v. much loving the text.

international short story--seems like it will be a fun class.  two classes with prof this semester ((adv. fiction writing)) and a decent mix of quite a few people that i already know. 

on another note.  my car is dead.  or close to it.  spending the day with his doctor and will hopefully be all better before the end of the day so the mother & i don't have to play musical cars during my break tomorrow.  there goes another $300 + to add to my credit card debt. 

fabulous, really.

i do believe i just got a new job.

went to an interview for target this morning--they made me an offer for Starbucks in the new wadsworth store!!!!!

woot!!

so, unless my pee test went wrong (  ), i'll be heading off to orientation & training in a week or 2. 

me & starbucks =  

me getting paid to work at starbucks =     

2006.

wow.

crazy, yeah?

met some new people last nite at jims.  some pretty cool, some i could have done without.  good times, overall.

was up all night so i slept all day which means that work tomorrow will be interesting. 

speaking of which--no longer is it a problem that i have no job but rather that i may have 2 jobs.  i love how these things work out

see, Moniza came back from Pakistan and she has not yet found someone to replace me so she wants me to continue to work for her until the baby is born--April?--but i have a job interview at Target on thursday which, i know isn't a big deal but i'm kind of hoping to get it.  i mean...theres a possibility of workin in a Starbucks which would be so freakin amazing.  i don't wanna get all focused on that tho in case i don't get a job at all with Target.  if it turns out that way, i'll most def. keep my job working for Moniza. 

and speaking of Starbucks--i stopped at the one on the strip, friday before work (using one of the gift cards i got this year for that lovely establishment) and got a fix.  anyway, the point being--if you frequent starbucks, you are aware of "The Way I See It" and tho i often toss the cup without reading them, this one--#52--made me...chuckle.  "True story:  Recently I eavesdropped on a conversation between two twenty-something employees at a local Starbucks.  I listened as the barista mused about his taste in music.  Then the cashier asked him if he had ever heard the song 'Strawberry Fields Forever.'  After a pause, the barista answered, 'No, can't say I ever heard that one before.'  Thats when I knew there really was such a thing as a generation gap.  --Mary Chapin Carpenter..." 

check out my currently listening.  The Beatles?  Magical Mystery Tour?  Stawberry Fields Forever?

now i really do have to admit that i don't own that cd (yet) nor had i downloaded that particular song before but..really?  i think the beatles have transcended the generation gap.  or at least some of them--for some people. 

but moving right along....

My New Years Resolution::

No Regrets.

Tis been my resolution every year for the past several ((see--listen to--John Reuben, Are We There Yet?, "No Regrets" for my inspiration)) and tho i cannot claim a total absence of regret, i think my resolutions go much better than those of most people.  its more of an attitude than anything else, i think.  by doing ones best to not live in the past, i suppose....

welp.  thats all i've got for now. 

make it a good one